Thankfully Overwhelmed

One thing that I love about this life is that we do not ever stop learning. Whether we realize it at the time or not, we truly do learn something new every day. I think that this could possibly be the root of my problem. My problem being that I have not been able to write in quite some time. There have been so many things that God has been teaching me lately, and I'm so overwhelmed with them all that I cannot seem to put them into words. This overwhelming feeling is not a bad thing by any means. It's simply a joy and a peace that passes all understanding. Although I'd love to shout to the world everything that the Lord is teaching me, He goes on to tell me that it's okay to keep these certain things just between the two of us. How great is our God that he longs to have such an intimate relationship with us, lowly human beings who do not deserve His time nor love. I'm in awe when he says to me "Daughter, throughout your life I'm going to share with you many new and exciting things! Some of them I want you to store in your heart so that you may shout it to all who is willing to hear, and some of them I want you to hold fast in your heart so that you my dwell on them and dwell in me. That we may grow together, just the two of us." How wonderful is our Father that he may desire to share some of many mysteries that He created! How great is it that He chose to teach us, test us, shake us, mold us, use us, and above all, love us!
-Most beautiful Father,
Thank you. Thank you for teaching me new things every single day. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of you and you a part of me. I am nothing without you. I love you.
In YOUR name,
Amen

Captivated

Here I am wide awake in the middle of the night wondering whether to read or to write. Many thoughts are racing through my head as Christmas is only four days away and a brand new year is about to begin. Thoughts of last minute Christmas shopping, New Years Resolutions, family and friends fill my mind. I sit here a moment and the word "God" overpowers me. God. It is a name that we often throw around without a care, forgetting how powerful and meaningful it truly is. Lately I have been thinking about prayer in the same way. I tend to forget how extreme, intense, and powerful prayer is. I find myself praying to GOD telling Him the same things over and over again. "Father, you are amazing, wonderful, indescribable, full of love and you astound me", I recite to Him. Do you think that after hearing the same thing every single day that He would get tired of it? Do you think that those words would get old, worn out, and He may wonder if I truly mean it? As I begin to end my prayers, I often begin feeling guilty. I'm left in tears as I search for more words to lay before our Savior. I find nothing. HOW CAN I PRAY IN ORDER THAT I MAY GIVE GOD THE GLORY AND HONOR THAT HE DESERVES? Finally, a sweet voice softly says, "I want your love. I want your faith. I want your obedience. I want your time. I just want YOU, Courtney." I fall to my knees. Father reminds me that there is NOTHING GREATER than being in the presence of Him, holding on for dear life as He holds onto me. There is power that comes when I put away all distractions and my focus is solely on the one who created me. There is something greater than the words that come out of my mouth. There is a child who is giving her time, her love, her heart to a magnificant King who will do everything to keep it from breaking. To the Lord, there is nothing more captivating than to be with the child that He is in love with. I don't know if I will ever fully grasp the omnipotence of God, but I will do everything I can to try.

Father,
You truly do astound me. I am captivated by you. I am sorry for being selfish with my time and the way that I come before you. Help my heart to change. I can't do it, but you can. Thank you for your love and forgiveness. I love that you chose me to be your child. I wouldn't desire anything more! I love you.
Amen

Let us fall before Him putting away everything that may distract us, using our hearts to search and find Him. Let us be captivated by Him for He is the only true definition of beauty that we'll ever find.

Created In His Image

I find myself at many moments taking a small step back, looking at my life and asking "How can I be more like Christ?". I often wonder what is it that I need to say or do, or how shall I present myself in a manner that others may see the love of Christ through me? I have found myself asking these questions almost too often if that is even possible. I have come to the conclusion that instead of thinking these things, I need to first begin with the relationship that I have with God. Am I giving Him my time? Is He the one that I am in tune with when I fall asleep and when I wake each morning? Do I work to reflect His image for today? That is being pure, humble, faithful, selfless, and loving. Am I diving into His word, speaking to Him, and DWELLING IN Him? I do not need to know whether or not I lived for Him yesterday, nor will I live for Him tomorrow, but am I living in and for Him TODAY. I have found the answer to my question. What can we do in order that others may see Christ through us? Let Christ consume us, captivate us, and once we dwell in Him, he will overflow from us. Now THAT's powerful.
Dive. Go. Read. Learn. Reflect. Do. Be. Live. Love. Dwell.

In Christ we live and breath,

One of many daughters of the King

Skin-on

As I said in my previous blog, God is there. He is everywhere, breathing in everything, moving throughout, and living amongst everyone. He's in you and he's in me. Although feeling His presence is needed and longed for, it's almost as if sometimes we need something more. Something tangible. Something with... skin-on. I believe that is why God gave us the gift of relationships. God uses our loved ones to help us, encourage us, give us a shoulder to cry on, walk with us, conquer with us, share joy with us, and grow with us. Throughout ALL of that is God. He lives and moves in the relationships that we have and build on. I'm thankful for that. I think we all are.

Thank you Lord for the relationships that you bless us with. We would be nothing without you, O Lord, and would go nowhere without them. Father, throughout this messy life of mine, please use someone near with skin-on to help conquer, encourage, grow, share joy, and walk with me. I need that, but I need you more than ever. I love you.

In YOU I live and breath,

Courtney :0)

God is There

In the midst of unworthiness- God is there

When showered in hardship- God is there

When all you know is the frustration overpowering you- God is there

Among the shattered pieces that you feel inside- God is there

When soaking in your tears- God is there

In the corner of that smile that you have- God is there

In the look in your eye- God is there

In the love that you show- God is there

In the joy that you feel- God is there

In your heart- GOD IS THERE

I'm in awe. I have no words for how astounded I am at our indescribable Lord and Savior- our Father! I'm full of wonder and amazment at how He is there with us through everything we go through whether good or bad. Through subtle, day to day experiences He shows us His love, patience, and grace. How incredible is the Lord our God who will carry us through anything! Who desires us to CHOOSE Him! He longs for us! He cries out for us! He LOVES us. He chose us! Abba Father, How I choose you in return!

Thank you Father!

Your daughter,
Courtney :0)

Hope

She is trapped in a cave of darkness. Continuing to climb further and further into the cave she cries for she cannot find the light. "There's no way out!" She shouts. Her body is worn out, her knees are bleeding and her legs are weak. Bruises and scrapes cover her hands from keeping herself from falling. Dirt covers her face and begins to creep into her eyes. She trembles when she feels the loss of hope flowing through her body. All of the energy that she could possibly have has now left through her fingertips as she lies helpless against the rocky ground.
-Suddenly a voice calls out to her.. "Beloved! Beloved! Where is your hope? Where has your faith gone? Have you lost it all? I beg you, don't let it go!"

She struggles to fight the voice only becoming weaker and weaker. Finally there is nothing left inside of her and all she has left is to bring back the hope, the faith that she once had- crying out to the only one who can save her, Abba Father.

As I take a look all around me, my heart sinks. I see a loss of hope that is overpowering us. Where has it gone? My prayer, my PLEA is that we bring the hope back. Don't be afraid to cry out to God and ask our creator to help! He's listening.. He's ready to give it to you. Just ask.


Lord, I'm hopeless without you. Please give me the faith, the hope that I need to get through this day. Thank you Father :0)

-Your daughter,
Courtney

Heavenly Father,

I long to be under your control. Lord if I had only one plea it would be that you may take hold of my unformed heart and do with it as you please. Savior, please help me to be faithful to you TODAY. I am learning that I have absolutely no control over myself and therefore I ask that you hold me, mold me, love me, and use me. If I turn to the things of this world, the days become difficult and my heart becomes weak. If I turn to you, O Lord, the days may become difficult, but my heart becomes strong in you! Which shall I choose? The answer is simple yet the task seems to be more challenging. I cannot do this on my own! Please, Lord, walk with me, carry me. I need you. I desire to be yours and I believe you'll have me. Thank you beautiful one! Who am I that I deserve a Father to love me like you do? I do not deserve you, yet your unfailing love overflows into my life!
My life is in Your hands
Your daughter,
Courtney

My Prayer

Porcelain Heart by Barlow Girl



"Broken heart
One more time
Pick yourself up
Why even cry
Broken pieces in your hands
Wonder how you'll make it whole

CHORUS:
You know
You pray
This can't be the way
You cry
You say
Some thing's gotta change
And mend this porcelain heart of mine
Of mine....

Someone said
A broken heart
Would sting at first then make you stronger
You wonder why this pain remains
Were hearts made whole just to break

CHORUS:

Creator only you take brokenness
And create it into beauty once again

Chorus:

You know
You pray
This can't be the way
You cry
You say
Some thing's gotta change
And mend this porcelain heart
Please mend this porcelain heart
Of mine
Creator mend this heart"


~Only you, Lord, can pick up the pieces and mend them back together.
Your daughter,
Courtney

All I Ask of You

If I asked you to please me..

I would have left a long time ago.

I desire to be loved & to give love

and that's

why I'm still here.

Yours truly,

Courtney Witt

My desires....

I dream of Ice Skating because it's graceful.

I dance because it shows expression and emotion.

I want to play guitar because of the smooth melody.

I love to cook because it has flavor.

I sing because it brings out passion.

I think of the places i've been and I want to travel because it's adventurous and full of beauty.

I love speed-walking because I become determined.

I read because I can use my imagination.

I love to stretch because it helps me feel.

Grace, Listen, Beauty, Laugh, Feel, Determination, Smooth Melody, Cry, Imagination, Passion, Love, Flavor, Expression, Emotion, Move

LIVE